Wow.

So it's been a really long time since I updated a journal here.

'bout damn time.

Well, since my last journal, I:

--*finally* turned 17.
-- got my driver's license
-- got a car
-- made new friends
-- got a job at Fred Meyers
-- got a friend a job at Fred Meyers
-- fell in love with new music
-- and people.
-- fell out of love with old music
-- and people.

There's been a lot of shit happening to me lately. Some of which I don't care to talk about, and most of which I'm sure none of you care to hear about.

Too bad.

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I finally grew the nads to tell someone who I don't care for off. Weird coming from me, such an outspoken person, aye? This person was different..someone I've known a very long time and at one point cared very much for...and yet I don't regret a thing about it. She doesn't deserve my friendship...period.

I put myself in a bad situation and almost lost a very good, close friend of mine. I was acting before putting full thought into the shit I was doing and it almost cost me a very good friendship. I look back on that and I feel sick to my stomach.

I fell in love with someone I shouldn't have.

I lost a close friend due to a psycho-bitch from hell. Maybe I'm better off without him...but I don't know if he's better off without me. Since then, he's changed for the worse...and it scares me. I don't want him hurt.

I've become obsessive about certain things I probably shouldn't be.

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Good things --

I've made new friends...not 'best friends' or anything special like that, just...friends.

I've got a good job. Doesn't pay extremely well but hey...money is money.

I get to pet-sit/check in on a friend's apartment for a few weeks this month. I don't really like it when she's not around, but I can't say I don't enjoy being able to do these things for her. She's awesome & so are her pets.

I've become close with someone who I never really imagined being friends with in the first place. Now I can't remember life before having her around! And I don't want to because quite frankly...she rocks my socks xD

I've grown VERY close to someone who, again, I'd never imagined being friends with in the first place. I'm glad I mustered up the courage to extend friendship to him, because I think I'd honestly be lost without him right now. He knows who he is and eventhough he knows, I must say...that I absolutely adore him and love him dearly.

I've become not-so-addicted to Tibia.

Although I have become somewhat obsessive about Second Life.

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That's about it for now. All I want to write about anyway. I'll leave you with the lyrics from one of my current favorite songs, just for good measure.

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When I See You Smile by Bad English

Sometimes I wonder
How I'd ever make it through,
Through this world without having you
I just wouldn't have a clue

'Cause sometimes it seems
Like this world's closing in on me,
And there's no way of breaking free
And then I see you reach for me

Sometimes I wanna give up
I wanna give in,
I wanna quit the fight
And then I see you, baby
And everything's alright,
Everything's alright!

When I see you smile
I can face the world, ohoh,
You know I can do anything
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light, ohoh,
I see it shining right through the rain
When I see you smile
Baby when I see you smile at me

Baby there's nothing in this world
That could ever do
What a touch of your hand can do
It's like nothing that I ever knew

And when the rain is falling
I don't feel it,
'cause you're here with me now
And one look at you baby
Is all I'll ever need,
It's all I'll ever need!

When I see you smile
I can face the world, ohoh,
You know I can do anything
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light, ohoh,
I see it shining right through the rain
When I see you smile baby
Baby when I see you smile at me!

Sometimes I wanna give up
I wanna give in,
I wanna quit the fight
Then one look at 'cha baby
And everything's alright,
Everything's alright

So right!...

When I see you smile
I can face the world, ohoh,
You know I can do anything
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light, ohoh,
I see it shining right through the rain

When I see you smile
Yeah, I can face the world, ohoh,
You know I can do anything

When I see you smile
Oh yeah...

Baby, when I see you smile

Smile at me